A Minute of Prayer
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Elizabeth Kindelmann, maiden name Szántó,
was born on June 6, 1913 at Saint Stephen’s Hospital, in
Kipest, Hungary. She was baptized on June 13, 1913.
In posthumous writings left by her spiritual director, who
died in 1976, it is reported that she was from a poor
family.
Her parents were Joseph Szántó, a printer (1871-1917) and
Ersébet Meszaros (1878-1924). Her father was Protestant and
her mother Catholic. The children received a Catholic
education.
Elizabeth had twelve brothers and sisters, all twins, except
for her who was the thirteenth child. She was the only one
to make it through the adult age. Seven of her brothers and
sisters were victims of the 1919 Spanish influenza. Two died
from diphtheria and two others were killed in accidents. One
of her brother died at a young age. Elizabeth never knew
why.
“After my father’s death, between 1917 and 1919, I was
raised by my grandparents at Seresznyéspuszta, in the
countryside. The doctor had recommended that I live in the
countryside because of my poor health. During that period, I
don’t remember being taken to the church of Szekazard at
about 14 kilometers from where we lived. I only remember
that my grandmother was wearing a Rosary around her wrist,
even when she was feeding the chickens and the pigs.
From September 1919 to June 1923, I attended the elementary
school for girls, which was located in Pannonia Street,
Budapest.”
In November 1923, as part of an international effort,
Elizabeth was sent to Willisau, Switzerland to live with the
family of a rich entrepreneur of agricultural machinery.
“From the child that I was, I became under the surveillance
of French and German housekeepers, a real girl, who had gone
from 21 kilos to 38.
In November 1924, I came back to Budapest out of love for my
mother who was seriously ill and confined to bed.
At the end of the year 1924, my Willisau “parents” wanted to
adopt me and take me for good to Switzerland. The
appointment was set for 10 o’clock at the Graz train station
(Austria). I got there at 10:00 p.m., but they were
expecting me at 10:00 a.m. That unfortunate misunderstanding
caused me to stay and accomplish my mission in Hungary. A
young Hungarian couple took me back to Budapest.
At the age of twelve, I was working for my uncle, from my
mother’s side, at Vajta. I was supposed to stay there from
Easter until the harvest of maize, but I could not tolerate
the laziness of my cousins so I left and went back to
Budapest.
From November 1925 to June 1926, I was working as a maid at
the house of a provincial notable’s mother. I had to work
from morning until evening and was fed only once a day. I
lived in a pitiful social condition and suffered from
hunger. So, I decided to leave to go downtown.
Under the carriage entrance of a little crumbling house, I
saw an old lady not very friendly who was holding in her
hand an empty siphon bottle of Seltzer water. She was
looking at me and called me; she asked me if I could buy one
bottle of seltzer water at the bar across the street. She
gave me money and looked to see if I was doing what she
asked me to. I brought back the bottle of seltzer water and
I followed her inside the house where she offered me
breakfast. She hired me to take care of her little garden,
and in exchange she would provide the meals. There were
strange people visiting her home. I physically put up
resistance to a young man who was accustomed to the house.
That very same day, I took my belongings and departed.
On August 10, 1926, I went to the Church of Perpetual
Adoration on Ülloi Ave. When it was time to close the
church, I went wandering around until I sat down on a bench
at the Matyas Park. The policeman who was on duty had pity
on me and did not send me away. When the morning came, I
went to the Church of the Sacred Heart of Jesus where I
slept during the whole mass. After I felt warmed up, I
decided to go looking for a job. Next to the church of
Jozsefvaros, it was posted on the door of a dairy that they
were recruiting people to carry bottles of milk. I went and
was hired, but I was told to come back three days later to
start the job. By then, the person I was replacing would
have left the dairy. What else should I do during those
three days? There was at the Koszuru St. a manufacture that
needed people to crack nuts. All the workers were seated
around a long table. Each one of them had two baskets. They
took the nuts from one basket, crack them and put them in
the other basket. The production of each worker was weighed
and they paid 4 “fillers” (100 fillers = one pengo. The
pengo was the Hungarian currency from 1925 to 1946) an hour.
With 10 “fillers”, I could buy five croissants at the
marketplace of Teleki, which was the less expensive store of
the city. I went to the house of the Franciscan fathers who
gave me some money. I shared my bread with a starving woman;
we sat on a bench and ate it at once. The Franciscans
suggested that I went to see the sisters at Maria’s St. who
accepted to shelter me in exchange of a pengo. Hunger forced
me to rob and I was ashamed of myself. I went to confession.
The Father who gave me the sacrament of reconciliation
reassured me and said that I had not sinned, for only misery
had forced me to do what I had done. Little after, the
sisters decided to let me stay for free.
Living in poverty and without any human help, I kept on
looking for jobs which were paying a little more. For the
same work at another dairy located on Baross St. (eighth
district of Budapest), they paid six pengos and one free
meal. The third dairy, also on Baross St., kept me on my
feet for one year. It was the best job, materially speaking.
I was making 8 pengos and worked only from 5:00 to 11:30. I
spent my free time praying, more often at the Church of
Perpetual Adoration. I frequently attended the office of
Perpetual Adoration. To adjust my salary, I took a job in a
place where they pealed potatoes. They paid two “fillers”
for one kilo of pealed potatoes. I was making 12 “fillers”
for every three hours of work. In the meantime, I sold
candies at a suburb theater. I was not watching movies.
During the play, I would think of God. Occasionally, the
director borrowed money from me. When she owed me 20 pengos,
she chose to let me go.
I became a porter at Halles in the ninth district. Everyday,
at six, I went there and offered my services to the ladies
who came for shopping. I helped them carry their packages to
their houses; once there, many of them invited me for
breakfast. That’s how I met a middle class family who helped
me take a nursing course at the Nursing School, in Dohany
St., eighth district. But it will be ten years later that I
would use my knowledge as a nurse when I worked at the
Hospital of the Franciscan nuns and at the anti-tubercular
Hospital of Tarogato Avenue.
I kept doing the same thing at the Halles even when I had a
job in a small family enterprise. My salary was 60 pengos a
month and lunch was provided. I was able then to rent a
room. I moved in at 10, Magdolna St., first floor where I
was paying 20 pengos a month. I worked from 8 a.m. to 4 p.m.
Throughout those hardship times, I wanted to make God known
to others. I had constantly in mind religious teachings and
missions.
At fifteen years old, I decided to become a nun at the
Perpetual Adoration which was a religious congregation
founded by the countess of Oultremont. I could spend hours
contemplating in silence the Blessed Sacrament. My heart was
filled with God’s love. One day I went to the convent and
asked the door sister how I could be admitted. She said I
needed a recommendation letter and gave me a list of the
things needed for the admission. It was also stated that
each person would give a certain amount of money according
to her possibility.
I was shocked when I read it and I thought I would never be
able to raise such an amount. So my little project of
becoming a nun faded away. Nevertheless, I felt deep down in
my heart the desire to become a missionary nun. I did not
know that God had other projects in store for me.”
Autumn 1928 – “I do not recall the name of the old lady that
I used to meet at the Perpetual Adoration. I told her about
my dreams to become a missionary. She gave me the address of
the missionary sisters of Hermina St. who were raising and
teaching orphans and who were also conducting missions and
sending out missionaries.
When I got to Hermina St., I asked to speak to the nun in
charge of missionaries. That was the first time I heard the
expression ‘Superior’. The sister at the door took me to the
waiting area. The Superior came and told me to sit down
since I was standing up. I told her how I wanted to go on a
mission and make God know to others. I explained to her that
I was an orphan and how much money I was making. Then, she
stood up and said that I did not have the true vocation and
that I only wanted to become a nun because I was an orphan
without a home. End of conversation.
I was confused. Everything was upside down in me. I did not
share that story with anyone except for the lady who gave me
the address of the convent. After listening to my story, she
said: “Go to their Headquarters at Menesi Avenue and ask for
the Provincial Superior.”
I took the tramway to go to Pest (Buda and Pest are
separated by the Danube which divides the city in two parts)
via the bridge Francois-Joseph (Francis-Joseph). I asked to
meet with the Provincial Superior. I waited a few minutes
which seemed to be as long as the five ones that would
precede my agony.
The Provincial Superior was so kind that I felt completely
relieved. I told her everything. She took my hand like a
mother and said: “We will ask the Lord Jesus to decide and
He will guide us. Everything will go according to His will.”
We both went to the chapel, but I stood at the back. I could
witness how the Provincial Superior was conversing with the
Lord Jesus. She came back, took my hand softly and we headed
back to the waiting area. There, she made me sit, put her
hand over mine and said: “That is not what God wants, my
child.” I almost fainted. “Do you know what God wants? He
wants something else for you. He has another mission for you
that you must accomplish the best you can.”
The Provincial Superior accompanied me to the door. She
kissed me on the forehead and blessed me. The will of God
was different. After the encounter with the Provincial
Superior, all my hopes vanished. Despair took over me. My
soul was in torment for a week. I did not know yet that it
was the devil’s work.
After I went to confession with Father Matray (who became
later on my confessor for many years), all my worries were
gone.
1927-1930: “To pray and to have knowledge was my only
desire. I find it hard to express my thirst for studies so
as to gain more knowledge. In six months, I learned the
manuals of the first two years of elementary school. I did
not have money to pass the exams. I started studying the
books of the third and fourth years. That’s how I learned
without getting a certificate.
Autumn of 1929 was a turning point in my life. With my nice
voice and fine hearing, I was accepted in the Choral of the
Church of Christ the King Community at Jozsefavors. The
first tenor was Karoly Kindelmann and I was the first
soprano. He asked me to marry him. I was sixteen when I got
married and my husband had thirty years more. He was a
chimney sweep instructor and that particular function was
well paid. We were married on May 25, 1930, which was the
Pentecost. My husband had a four room house built nearby
Budapest.
Between the years 1931 and 1942, I had six children. The
Angelus and the Rosary were part of our life.
On April 26, 1946 my husband died. I was a widow with six
children. After the war I could not have survived with my
kids if I did not sell some of our belongings and
possessions. Almost all of what we had then were traded. The
nationalization of 1948 was very harsh on us. We were on the
verge of ruin. I became a waitress at the military academy
where I worked twelve hours a day. I took the leftovers to
feed my family. Six months later I was fired for ‘political’
reasons. They had discovered that I had in my house a statue
of the Virgin Mary and some candles.”
November 1950 – May 1951. “I was in a humanely hopeless
situation. My financial problems were driving me further and
further from God. I was wandering from streets to streets
and from districts to districts. That’s how I realized there
was a change of owner at the former Eötli foundry located in
the Kobanya quarter. It was now named the Gábor Áron
foundry. I was hired as a technical supervisor. I was able
to save my family from starvation. My children were doing
art works at home. My oldest girls were making stockings
with a knitting machine and my sons were sewing cloth with a
loom.
Later, the place where I was working was reorganized and
many employees were laid off. I was among them. Once more, I
had to start looking for a job.
December 26, 1951 was the wedding of my oldest daughter,
Cecile.
While I was looking at the job section in a newspaper, I
found a job at a stove factory. The pay was so little that I
had to look elsewhere.
In autumn of the year 1953, I worked at a gasworks factory.
The job ended one month before the national uprising of
1956.
Christmas of 1955 – My second daughter is getting married.
Summer of 1957 – My boss is the dry cleaner Lazlo Harangi,
at the seventh district. After the dry cleaning, I was
employed at a craft cooperative where I was making silk
scarves.
June 1957 – It’s the wedding of my third daughter, Maria. In
June 1958, my son Karoli got married. In 1959, lodging
problems for the four new families are solved.”
1960 – Elizabeth Kindelmann went to register at the public
university to study psychology and astronomy; once more she
did not succeed with her plans.
“On July 13, 1960, three days before the feast of Our Lady
of Mount Carmel, she wrote, I had a wonderful spiritual
illumination, which lasted three days from morning to night.
Whenever I was talking to someone or vice versa, it stopped.
That suave sensation created in me peace and quiet. It took
me a few weeks to realize that this was the introduction of
the quiet presence of God within which cannot be expressed
with intellectual terms.”
Christmas of 1961 – “My second child, but the first of my
three boys is getting married at the age of 26. In the
course of six years, the family had three boys. The mother
died after giving birth to her third child. She had breast
cancer. The grandmother on the father’s side decided to
raise the little orphans.”
When approaching her fifties, Elizabeth thought she was
entering a quiet and peaceful time after an eventful life.
But Christ and His holy Mother spoke to her.
1962 – “Before receiving the messages from Jesus and the
Virgin Mary, I had that specific call: ‘Renounce yourself
for We have a great mission for you. You’ll only be able to
do it if you completely renounce yourself. You are free to
choose. You will accomplish it only if you want it.’
After experiencing doubts and torments within my soul, I
accepted God’s will. My soul was seized with so much grace
that I was speechless.”
It is deep inside that she listens to their words. She can
clearly distinguish the voice of Jesus from the one of Mary
or the angel.
On April 11, 1985 Elizabeth Kindelmann died after a long and
painful illness that she bore with patience; she was
comforted with the last rites. She was buried at Erd/Ofalu,
approximately 24 kilometers, southwest of Budapest, on the
banks of the Danube.
Before she became the Lord and Virgin Mary’s tool, she
endured many trials that she overcame with exceptional
strength.
For many decades, she was unknown to the public.